竟然在莫名其妙的情境下，重新開啟了我的山莊。現在，落水山莊已經不在英國，現在開張，是在遙遠的花蓮，一個跟Sheffield有點像、但其實是完全不像的小鎮。在這個地方，偶而會想念起英國那個我呆了五年的小鎮的風情，麻雀雖小，五臟俱全的一個小地方，聽說前一陣子才被選為全歐洲最適合旅行的地點之一。想到那時候的一點一滴，好奇怪，一切就像夢一樣。
虛無飄渺，但又曾真實地存在。
Alright, that is the history, but now, i am facing the new history. And actually, the history is walking about two years. Time flies.
在這兩年間，我也開始了我的新旅程，無論是日常生活、或學術堆砌的日子。從過去的炫耀與巨大，我轉而朝向日常生活與渺小的事務，回顧這一年，我自己都覺得自己的研究取徑竟然作那麼大的轉移。好像是兩個不同的人一樣。對象也不一樣了，過去我看著看似non-human的建築與地景，現在我看的是人，以及每一個物後面的人的氣味。
星期四那天去看了阿惠，我不善與人交際，此外，我覺得一昧地與對方混熟，好像太顯得刻意。我不喜歡這種感覺，而且，說實在，我認識的人我也不想將他寫入論文中。也因為這種人際關係的問題，使得我到阿惠都發生車禍後兩個月，我才知道她發生車禍了，而且挺嚴重的。
阿惠的車禍發生在自己的家中，阿惠是一個在鳳林的從南越來的越南配偶，連同丈夫的弟弟，也娶了跟她來自相同地方的姐妹，看來姐妹也來自同樣的地方，應該也是彼此介紹認識。雖然阿惠輕描淡寫，但按照她的說法，看來曾經很辛苦，但是現在至少獲得先生、以及婆婆的愛護，也有了一男一女，也算苦盡甘來。兩個月前在自己家門口，被快速沒有煞車的車子撞到，頭破腳斷。本來去只是去看看她，沒想到她還是把發表會的餐點的單給包了下來。
但回來的時候我不停地在思考這件事情。究竟，我請阿惠包這個單到底是對或不對呢?
對於她來說，顯然是一個賺錢的機會，這也是他之前生存之道。但是我會不會犯了我之前批評的那些人所做的事情? 要姐妹們「販賣」著異國的文化，打著文化交流、多元文化的標籤，實際上試圖著享受異國、吃著他人的過程。
究竟，觀看他者與多元文化交流的差異關鍵點在哪裡？
在與阿惠以及老闆討論的過程中，我顯然說詞很小心，很緩慢，避免說出「你們」「我們」，我談論的是「越南美食」，說得好像越南美食是一項客觀與我們都不相干的事務。但我心中卻無比矛盾，這是來自阿惠國家的東西，我究竟，是要阿惠乾脆地作台灣人，還是要做越南人？為什麼她不時地要被人家要求作越南菜？正如那些越南姊妹要被要求去跳所謂的越南舞一樣？差異到底在哪裡？
另一方面，我也開始反省親愛的左手的反省以及他的命題，開始思考，會不會，有時候是可以達到兩個平衡點？明明就來自異國，為什麼要來自異國的人去忘記他從哪裡來？掩飾他從哪裡來？或者，正如我們看「金錢」這件事情一樣，「展演」的本質，可以是好也可以是不好，本身其實就可以是一種利器，是一種被運用的武器。
我相信，很多多元文化的具體展演，例如美食或舞蹈，立意是良善的，是一種可以被empower的手段；然而當這個過程，是一種上對下，被要求，不具備自主性的被觀賞與被凝視，或許就值得被探討吧(?)
I cannot stop thinking about the process at that day, again and again. I am afraid if i made the same mistakes which are made by others and always criticised by me. What is the process and the event for? For gazing and tasting Others (Vietnamese)? Or for multiple cultures? or actually, it is just a business?
The culture from my motherland is a mark to be seen? or a weapon to protect my people, and to cohere our identity? I was once an international student, and had the experiences of Diaspra. But i know i will never have the same experiences and the same thoughts like a-hi has. It is because we basically are in the different conditions and in different class....
Becoming someone else is indeed a challenge...
27 December 2013
28 March 2013
部落格計畫重新啟動
寫部落格計畫要重新啟動了。突然的低潮不是個好事情，看來是需要再拾起書寫這件事情，來舒展資情緒與壓力。只有短暫條列式的plurk or facebook，不是個好東西。思想變得片面化，需要用落落長的文字機會，來梳理自己的思想，以及記錄自己的田野調查。
希望，這個計畫可以持續。
希望，這個計畫可以持續。
6 January 2010
wine list
2009/12/01
Sauvignon Blanc(White)
Winery:Oyster Bay
Area: Marlborough(NZ)
Year: 2007
Grapes: Sauvignon Blanc
Tasting note: strong fruit flavour.
2009/12/20
Cotes de bourg(Red)
Winery: Chateau Grand-Jour
Area: North of Bordeaux City(France)
Year: 2007
Grapes: Merlot(70), Cabernet Sauvignon(20), and Cabernet Franc(10)
Tasting note: cassis, liquorice, and hint of strawberry. This kind of wine is a little dry for me. I cannot find the flavour of cassis, liquorice and strawberry the note mentioned. will try other kind of wine later.
Colour: ruby
2010/01/02
* International Wine Challenge Silver 2009
Winery: Crozes-Hermitage(red)
Area: Northern Rhone Valley(France)
Year: 2007
Grape: Syrah grape(a kind of dark-skinned grape)
Tasting note: black and red berry fruit flavours, hint of spices, cedarwood and black pepper. Personally, I prefer to this wine. And actually this wine is much sweeter than other redwine i have ever tasted. I think this is not a dry redwine. But some notes show that syrah grape is usually used to make dry red table wine. So that is quite weird when you taste strong fruity and sweet flavour from this kind of wine. But pretty good.
Colour: purple
Next wines I want to try:
NZ: Oyster Bay(Merlot)($)
Italy: Barolo($$)
France: Pape ($$$$)
Sauvignon Blanc(White)
Winery:Oyster Bay
Area: Marlborough(NZ)
Year: 2007
Grapes: Sauvignon Blanc
Tasting note: strong fruit flavour.
2009/12/20
Cotes de bourg(Red)
Winery: Chateau Grand-Jour
Area: North of Bordeaux City(France)
Year: 2007
Grapes: Merlot(70), Cabernet Sauvignon(20), and Cabernet Franc(10)
Tasting note: cassis, liquorice, and hint of strawberry. This kind of wine is a little dry for me. I cannot find the flavour of cassis, liquorice and strawberry the note mentioned. will try other kind of wine later.
Colour: ruby
2010/01/02
* International Wine Challenge Silver 2009
Winery: Crozes-Hermitage(red)
Area: Northern Rhone Valley(France)
Year: 2007
Grape: Syrah grape(a kind of dark-skinned grape)
Tasting note: black and red berry fruit flavours, hint of spices, cedarwood and black pepper. Personally, I prefer to this wine. And actually this wine is much sweeter than other redwine i have ever tasted. I think this is not a dry redwine. But some notes show that syrah grape is usually used to make dry red table wine. So that is quite weird when you taste strong fruity and sweet flavour from this kind of wine. But pretty good.
Colour: purple
Next wines I want to try:
NZ: Oyster Bay(Merlot)($)
Italy: Barolo($$)
France: Pape ($$$$)
31 December 2009
Year Schedule
Jan
Journal- themed city in chinese version
Chapter- 6: danger and safe in English version
Feb
deadline of the Abstract K: 15
Chapter- 5: westernized and hybridity
Mar
post- Post to America
Meeting- 7 (?)
Back to Taiwan(confirmed)
Meeting- 22-27 Las Vegas(confirmed)
Apl
Back To UK
May
report - annual report in sheffield
Jun
Meeting- 1 London(not yet)
Jul
Meeting- 1-2 Lancaster
Prom- London (not yet)
Play- Hamlet in London(not yet)
Aug
Meeting- 26-28 RBG-IGU
Sep
Oct
Meeting- 24-25 Berlin(not yet)
Nov
Deb
Meeting- Taiwan 社會學年會(not yet)
Meeting- Taiwan 文化研究年會(not yet)
Journal- themed city in chinese version
Chapter- 6: danger and safe in English version
Feb
deadline of the Abstract K: 15
Chapter- 5: westernized and hybridity
Mar
post- Post to America
Meeting- 7 (?)
Back to Taiwan(confirmed)
Meeting- 22-27 Las Vegas(confirmed)
Apl
Back To UK
May
report - annual report in sheffield
Jun
Meeting- 1 London(not yet)
Jul
Meeting- 1-2 Lancaster
Prom- London (not yet)
Play- Hamlet in London(not yet)
Aug
Meeting- 26-28 RBG-IGU
Sep
Oct
Meeting- 24-25 Berlin(not yet)
Nov
Deb
Meeting- Taiwan 社會學年會(not yet)
Meeting- Taiwan 文化研究年會(not yet)
15 December 2009
Julie and Julia
Found some good quotes from the movie "Julie and Julia". Julie Child is a famous female chef in USA. She learned how to cook in Paris, and then wrote a cookbook around 1970s for Americans without handing a cookguide when cooking. And Julia is an officer who loves cooking and quite admires Julie Child. One day, she decides to challenge Julie's recipes in 365 days, and writes her challege diary in a personal blog days by days. By cooking and Julie Child's cookguide, there is a kind of relationship crossed time and space between Julie and Julia. It is a lovely and interesting story.
There is a remarkable scene i cannot forget. Paul, Julie's husband, says to Julie "You are the butter to my bread, and the breath to my life." when they are having the Valentine's day dinner with friends. Quite a lovely sentence. Suitable for saying to your dearest.
After the movie, i just made Boeuf Bourguignon with a bottle of 2006-Bordeaux red wine. Just LOVE IT! Kitchen is really a wonderful place to relax the stress after a day. In this space, I can control everything in my hand; under the controlling, this is my place. Love the feeling. If you make something wrong, it doesn't matter becuase it is just a peice of cake.. really a cake (or dish)... lol
Cooking is unlike writing a thesis. You cannot control the whole situation sometimes when writing the story. But cooking, in the contrary, you always can get something back. Though sometimes, the dishes may be scorched.... lol
But i know i can say that easily becuase cooking is neither my project nor my topic. That should be another kind of story if cuisine or cooking is part of my thesis. I know that circumstances by watching my housemate.... ;p
There is a remarkable scene i cannot forget. Paul, Julie's husband, says to Julie "You are the butter to my bread, and the breath to my life." when they are having the Valentine's day dinner with friends. Quite a lovely sentence. Suitable for saying to your dearest.
After the movie, i just made Boeuf Bourguignon with a bottle of 2006-Bordeaux red wine. Just LOVE IT! Kitchen is really a wonderful place to relax the stress after a day. In this space, I can control everything in my hand; under the controlling, this is my place. Love the feeling. If you make something wrong, it doesn't matter becuase it is just a peice of cake.. really a cake (or dish)... lol
Cooking is unlike writing a thesis. You cannot control the whole situation sometimes when writing the story. But cooking, in the contrary, you always can get something back. Though sometimes, the dishes may be scorched.... lol
But i know i can say that easily becuase cooking is neither my project nor my topic. That should be another kind of story if cuisine or cooking is part of my thesis. I know that circumstances by watching my housemate.... ;p
6 December 2009
PTT幫我算的
Miracle healing : 奇蹟治療
New location : 新地點
Body movement : 身體運動
今年度你的健康會比以前更好
請好好珍惜你的身體
適度的運動對你最有幫助
有時候心情不佳
跟健康也有關聯的
請認真的規劃你的健康計畫
並確實執行
另外
你將有機會升遷或遷移
轉換跑道等
出現兩張跟健康有關聯的牌
建議要好好照顧你的身心
New location : 新地點
Body movement : 身體運動
今年度你的健康會比以前更好
請好好珍惜你的身體
適度的運動對你最有幫助
有時候心情不佳
跟健康也有關聯的
請認真的規劃你的健康計畫
並確實執行
另外
你將有機會升遷或遷移
轉換跑道等
出現兩張跟健康有關聯的牌
建議要好好照顧你的身心
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